Destinied one
Kurogane was never afraid to talk to someone, even now he wouldn’t hesitate to force Fai into a conversation but he should be careful this time. Their relationship was broken already and Kurogane had to fix it… again.
Some hours ago he wanted to let Fai decide what to do but Kurogane knew his mage was just too stubborn.
Thinking Fai would leave without saying a word Kurogane stopped in front of their frontdoor. It was ironic, wasn’t it? He already lived with Fai but the reasons were hilarious. They didn’t had a choice since they stranded in this world. Kurogane had the feeling Fai would hate him from day to day even more and what did Kurogane? He slept with Yuui. A perfect basis for not getting closer.
That’s maybe Fai’s forced wish but not their destiny.
Minutes later Kurogane still stood there before he finally entered their house.
“Mage,“ Kurogane yelled.
No answer.
“Come out. I need to talk to you… again,“ Kurogane spoke louder.
“What if he was gone already?“ The blackhaired man thought momentarily. He walked faster into the living room where Fai supposed to be but it was empty. The mage sat there more often than in his own room. Maybe he felt alone after all.
Kurogane next looked into Fais bedroom but he wasn’t there either. Even the kitchen and the bathroom were empty. Kurogane’s heart skipped a beat.
“Damn you, Mage. You’re really gone?“ Kurogane murmured to himself.
Not knowing how this was even possible but he still felt Fai’s presence near him. Where?
Grumbling Kurogane’s way led him into his own room. When he opened the door the room was pitch black. He couldn’t see anyone but he definitively felt someone - felt Fai on his bed. Was it always so difficulty to feel… the mage? When did he learn to erase his aura?
“What are you doing here?“ Kurogane spitted when he was trying to switch on the light.
“Stop!“ Fai said and used his magic against Kurogane.
A bright, blue light was shown around his hand and forced him to lower it. Fai never used his magic… not even in important moments. Kurogane saw Fai using his hands to control the magic but didn’t hurt him.
Kurogane sighed. When he was ‚free’ again he closed the door behind him. He didn‘t know why he shouldn’t turn on the light neither why Fai uses his magic suddenly.
“Talk to me,“ Kurogane tried not to shout at Fai.
“I wanted to say goodbye, but wasn’t sure if you would come back from… Yuui.“
Kurogane sighed again.
“That’s why you’re sitting in a dark room and using your magic against me?“
Fai started to laugh quietly like he was playing it again.
“I know you would force me to look into your eyes to speak with you, Kurogane. You still can do it, but neither me nor you would see something.“
This was a mistake. Kurogane couldn’t see clearly but he could see his contours and the moment when Fai lowered his head.
“I always thought you were an Idiot and that you were really complicated but I never thought it would getting worse,“ Kurogane shook his head and came closer. „I don’t know your problem at all.“
“You don’t have to know,“ Fai smiled.
“I can hear your expressions, mage. Stop faking you’re emotions it doesn’t help you! And most of it.. it doesn’t help us.“
“Us?“
“Stop playing dumb.“
“What do you expect from me, Kurogane?“
“I’m pretty sure I told you already. You’re so annoying… I didn’t liked your fake happiness from the beginning but it helped the kid and the princess and maybe it was… kinda calming having you around. This isn’t the matter here anyway. I want you to be honest… with me and yourself.“
Kurogane doesn’t like it to talk about his own feelings neither of talking what he really thinks of Fai but he has to do… otherwise he wouldn’t reach Fai anymore.
“I said I’m honest. I’m leaving and you can have fun with… Yuui.“ Fai always says this name with a long break. It hurts … it really does since this Yuui is actually him of this world. The more Fai can’t understand what’s happening.
“Idiot!“ Kurogane bursted out. It was enough already. „Stop talking shit!“ Kurogane pushed Fai on his bed and pinned his hands over Fai’s head. Kurogane kneeled above him.
“What’s your problem? Why would you do this with me? Didn’t you have Yuui already? Do you know how he would feel about this? Do you know how much you hurt him when you’re with me?“ Fai shouted this time but he had problems to keep one’s cool. He struggled to push Kurogane away but it didn’t worked. He maybe was strong enough as vampire but he hadn’t blood for a long time. “Leave me alone!“
Fai wanted to cry about his overwhelming feelings but also doesn’t want to show them to Kurogane.
“I do know how he feels,“ Kurogane answered. “And I’m pretty sure you do know it too because you’re the one who feels the same.“
Fai remained silent.
“Yuui is strong… stronger than you’re. I’m totally aware of his feelings for me.“
“Why are you here… then..“ Fai’s voice was cracking. He actually doesn’t want to know Kurogane’s answer.
“Are you really this stupid?“ Kurogane was the one who was stupid… he couldn’s say it clearly.
“You had sex with Yuui, hadn’t you? You’re always together.“
“We had,“ Kurogane honestly answered.
“You don’t deny it…“
“What’s the point in lying to you?“
“…“
“I never said we hadn’t but it’s not like I felt more than necessary.“
Kurogane doesn’t want to talk much about the sex with Yuui but it looked like Fai wanted to know the reason.
“We had sex because no one of us were in a relationship and I’m not in a relationship with him! It happened when we were drunk and when I was frustrated about you. I’m trying to talk to you for so long and you’re still avoiding me. You are still trying to leave without me even if you know you would die without my blood. How am I supposed to react?“
Since Fai didn’t moved a bit Kurogane thought he still wouldn’t get what he was saying. But he could feel Fai was crying.
“Fai,“ Kurogane said his name and sighed. “I’m not in love with Yuui… not with this Yuui. He used me as a replacement for his Kurogane and I used him.“
“So what…?“ Fai sniffed. He couldn’t move his hands to wipe of his tears.
“Read between the lines, idiot“, Kurogane grumbled.
Knowing eachother for such a long time the mage should understand what Kurogane meant. Fai still sniffed and cried but Kurogane felt that Fai finally relaxed.
“You don’t need to feel bad.. I talked with Yuui and it’s okay … for us,“ Kurogane rarely spoke softly. “You need my blood anyway…“ Kurogane only said it because he wanted the moment not getting more romantic. Even ‘tho Kurogane gently kissed Fai’s cheek to kiss the tears away.
Fai didn’t resist but closed his eye. Hearing this words made him feel better and he doesn’t want to run away any longer. He still was afraid of his own destiny but he couldn’t avoid Kurogane anymore.
“Wait,“ Fai hesitated.
Kurogane ease his grasp and Fai released his hands to push Kurogane away. The blackhaired man just didn’t want to hurt Fai anymore. He even rose his upper body to sit in front of Fai.
“Still?“
“I- it was okay for me when you were happy with Yuui,“ Fai muttered. He looked on the bedsheet of Kurogane’s bed.
“I already told-“
“It’s my turn now!“
Fai stopped. He wanted to smile, run away from Kurogane and this conservation and he just wanted to die, but it was too late already. Kurogane instead nodded and wanted to hear what Fai was hiding.
“I knew from the very beginning that you’re the one… I would be… bound to.“
Fai avoided the words „fell in love with“ on purpose because only knowing Kurogane would be his destiny didn’t mean automatically they really would fell in love with eachother.
“But… that you would sacrifice yourself to save my life wasn’t the plan at all. I was supposed to die there… it was just a bit earlier than I actually thought. I always thought I was one of the people you hate the most because I don’t wanted to live anymore. I don’t care what’s happen with me but I care a lot what happens with Sakura-chan and Syaoran.. they really have enough burdens to bear with.“
Fai stopped again. He need to take a deep breath before continuing. Kurogane was still listening.
“You don’t know how hard I tried not to came closer to you but it happened after all because I had so much fun,“ Fai laughed about himself.
„It’s still so ironically. Do you know why am I acting like this?“
“How the hell should I?“
“Would you believe me when I said I have to kill you? Or the princess?“
“Stop joking around,“ Kurogane said but he noticed Fai was serious.
“I guess it doesn’t make sense to lie to you anymore. You will learn about it soon or later. I can’t tell you everything yet but I was trying to protect you. I wasn’t happy when I found out about you and Yuui, but at the same time I thought it’s the best. I should have gone already but I just couldn’t. I was… so jealous of… myself?“
Fai sighed and his hand stroke through his hairs while he still was struggling not to leave. His whole body trembled.
“It’s hard to push you away when you always tried to reach out for me. I pretended to hate you because you saved my live. You were the one who bonded me even more to you. It was so painful. It still hurts when I need to drink your blood knowing I need to push you away again.“
Fai bite his lips. Kurogane wanted to reach out for him but he didn’t moved. He wasn’t shocked about what he was hearing but surprised.
“I wished you would feel the same as I do when I’m drinking your blood… just once. When-“
Kurogane didn’t waited any longer and pulled Fai back into his arms. He pushed Fais head against his neck and stopped him to talk.
“You could have told me earlier, you stupid mage! I don’t understand why it’s necessary to kill me but I won’t die easily,“ Kurogane spoke.
Kurogane’s hand still lied on the back of his head. He never forced Fai to bite him this way but it was okay this time. Fai needed blood after all and Kurogane doesn’t care about Fai’s explanation.
“Tell me when the time comes. You don’t have to protect me… you’re the one who needs to be protected. Did you already forget? I don’t care about your past. I talked a way to often to Yuui and the witch but… I know you’re my destinied one and we already changed some things that were supposed to happen, right?“ Kurogane wanted to punch himself for this kind of words but it was necessary to reach Fai.
“But…“ Fai wanted to disagree but Kurogane just pressed his head more against the neck.
“Just drink… and tell me what you feel.“
It was okay for Kurogane for not knowing everything. Fai carries a lot of burdens and he should talk to him about it but only little by little.
Without hesitating anymore Fai opened his mouth. Firstly he just licked about the soft skin before he finally bite Kurogane. The blood instantly floods into his mouth and it tasted more delicious than before. Fai grounded his fingers into Kurogane’s clothes when he drank a lot of Kurogane’s blood. It really was too long since he last got something to eat and Fai could feel his strength coming back.
“Fai…“, Kurogane grumbled. He knew when Fai has to stop but this time it was okay for him to take more. He even had a strange feeling. His body got warmer than usual and he just wanted to push Fai back into the sheets and wanted to do the same things he already did with Yuui… just more intense.
Fai’s hand weren’t passively but were wandering under Kurogane’s shirt. He wouldn’t tell him about what he was feeling he wanted to show it to him.
“Fuck“, Kurogane groaned. Too much feelings were floating his body when Fai touched him and was still sucking his blood. „Enough,“ he said.
Kurogane pushed Fai away before he drank too much.
“Are you still jealous I did this things only with Yuui?“ It was mean to ask this directly but Kurogane won’t hold back this time. “I wanted you from the very beginning.“ Kurogane really was honest right know.
Fai was already laying under Kurogane. Blood still sticked on his teeth and some of it was on the corner of his mouth but Kurogane doesn’t cared when he finally kissed him.
~~
“Aaah! It took you hours for… talking~“ Yuui grinned when he saw Kurogane and Fai.
Yuui was waiting for them on a bench near their house. Today was the moment when they will finally leave. Of course Yuui was sad but he doesn’t show it. He already knew this would happen when Kurogane decided to talk with Fai.
“Yeah, talking“, Kurogane grinned too.
“Hehehe~ I knew it!“ Yuui jumped up and hopped to the new pair.
When Yuui grabbed Fai’s hand he smiled all over his face. Fai slightly blushed when he realized Yuui knew what they did.
“I’m a bit sad that we couldn’t talk much and I’m very sorry for trying to steal Kurogane from you!“
Yuui was in a good mood after all. Talking with Kurogane helped him a lot and he was happy they finally made out.
“It’s okay,“ Fai said.
The atmosphere was much better than at the beginning. Fai was kinda silent since he didn’t knew what he could tell Yuui. He felt bad for beeing coldly and being jealous of himself.
“I see~ I thought I would be more chatty even the me from other worlds but I guess you need your time,“ Yuui laughed. “I really hope we will see each other again! But it’s more important for you to find your fellow travelers.“
“Don’t worry we’ll find them“, Kurogane said and looked at Fai.
“You use your magic?“ Yuui wanted to know.
“Mokona isn’t in this world. I realized it a time ago and we’ve a lot to do before we can think about staying in a world,“ Fai explained.
It wasn’t the first time when Fai used magic in this world but it definitely is the first time using this amount of magic to travel with Kurogane through the dimensions.
“It’s time to say goodbye, huh?“
Kurogane looked at Fai as if he wanted to ask if it’s okay to hug Yuui for the last time. Fai just nodded but instead of Kurogane hugging Yuui, Yuui came and hugged them both.
“See you soon,“ Kurogane said.
“Next time we’ll talk more! As long as you don’t steal Kurogane again.“ This time Fai was the one who laughed. Kurogane just shook his head and Yuui smiled.
Yuui showed some tears when Fai closed his eye and rose his hand to use his magic. Blue light appeared on the tip of his fingers followed by much more of his magic. This time he doesn’t has his stuff but it wasn’t necessary.
Surrounded by Fai’s magic Kurogane and Fai disappeared from this world to continue their journey.
