Kanone - White Reflection
It's a short reflection of Kanone after leaving Japan. You should know the whole Spiral-series before reading this!
I hope you will like and enjoy it!
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Eyes...
Now I'm sitting here in a plane. In a plane to nowhere? I'm alone...I just saw you standing out there, watching the plane at its start. You became smaller and smaller until you vanished before my eyes.
Why...Why I am alone?
We are walking on different paths. You know that, don't you? How long did you know?
But tell me. Why is the way in front of me in the darkness? You said it's a darkness with an unkown depth. Am I covered by darkness? Am I the black one? Are you the white one? Are we like angels? The White against the Black?
Weren't we friends? Back in the days of our childhood? Didn't I teach you everything you had to know? Do you still know it or did you forget it? Do you still know me? Do I still know you?
Everytime I'm listening to your music I can feel how you felt, when you played it. But now? I'm not sure. It has been such a long time and now? Now I'm lost. I'm lost more than ever. I'm lost without you by my side. I need you. Without you I'm weak, just too weak to resist.
You still believe in Kiyotaka's words, dont' you? I tried to understand them just a little bit more. Narumi-otouto's strength helped a little bit. But not enough. I still can't imagine how he could change our abominable fate. It's our fate, not his. We have to change it. There is only one path, right? Once I asked you which one would be the right one. You just answered that you wouldn't just choose the path of destruction. You are walking the path of freedom. You are waiting for what is going to happen. But please tell me Eyes, how can such a path rescue us? Hunters won't just disappear...they are still after us... They still want to eliminate us... Am I safe? Even that I'm on their side? I don't know...it would be a joke if I would be allowed to live...alone...the only one...a very bad joke...isn't it?
I'm alone right know and I'm afraid. Again I'm alone. Did I lost you? When Eyes, when? You are my precious treasure. You are the only one for me. Do you know that? Am I still precious to you? Do you think of me? Can you forgive me? Do you understand me? I don't know. Will I ever know? Will we ever meet again?
I just left you. I still can't believe it. I just left... I was destroyed by *just that*. I still don't know why. I have to cope with it. But will I ever be able to? I just don't know... I'm confused. How was he able to do that? Is Narumi-otouto really the *one* we have to rely on? Is he really the key to our fate? I still don't believe...I just can't believe...I just can't wait and see what he would do...I have to rescue myself...somehow...
Back in the days, I love to remember it, we were together. We talked a lot. About our fate, our future, our friendship. And now? What do we have now?
I miss you, *my* Eyes. I want to hold your hand. I want to feel your breath, no matter if it's warm or cold. Everywhere around me are thick clouds. It should be raining by now... Will I ever cry? Will I ever show my feelings about this incident? Will I ever show you tears? Will I ever be able to keep my promise? Can I cry for you? But...can you feel my pain?
I want to go back...back to where you are... But not now...anytime...anyplace...
We will meet again, Eyes...I won't forget you...
You are *my* eternal angel...
