Replacement von Ai_Mikaze (KuroFai <3) ================================================================================ Kapitel 4: Unavoidable destiny ------------------------------ “Yeah,” Kurogane finally grumbled after being silent for a few seconds. “Your lover?” Fai responded rather coldly. “You don’t need to care.” It was not like Kurogane wanted to keep it private but neither did he want to tell him about Yuui. It was the best for Fai that he didn‘t know what Kurogane was doing, even if Fai wouldn’t care about his relationship with Yuui. Kurogane just didn’t know how to explain the whole thing. “Where are you, Kuro-nyu~?“ Yuui’s voice sounded clearly through the house. “…“ Kurogane sighed loudly and annoyed. Yuui was so… exactly like Fai. He didn’t talk in the right moments, but talked a lot in the wrong moments. So much for that. “I see,” Fai said. “Nah, you don’t,” Kurogane huffed. He couldn’t clear up a mistake because it wasn’t one. A few seconds later Yuui joined them in the kitchen. As soon as he saw Fai, Yuui grinned and clung onto Kurogane’s arm. “I don’t need tea, you should come back into bed, Kuro-nyu,” Yuui whispered slightly, but loud enough to be heard by Fai. He looked Fai straight in the one eye left. It was enough to understand that Yuui declared Kurogane as his own. It may be the only way to open Kurogane’s eyes, even if he would leave Yuui sooner than later. Yuui knew about their journey and about the fact that Kurogane and Fai were made for each other. But something happened between the two of them and Yuui couldn‘t just stand by and watch Kurogane accept this fate. It wasn’t okay for Yuui to see Kurogane silently craving for Fai’s … love and do just nothing. “You should’ve told me that I came home in the wrong moment,” Fai said while smiling. Kurogane couldn’t answer because Yuui was pulling him back in his room with him. “Stop it, Yuui!“ Kurogane yelled. “Just stop it already!” Kurogane wasn’t amused and he didn’t care about being soft with Yuui, when he pushed him away. “But-” “I hate to repeat myself but I’ll say it once more: Take your stuff and leave this house! You don’t have the right to judge about my relationship with Fai nor the relationship I don’t have with him, alright?” Kurogane was furious but he was calm enough that no one outside this room could hear him. “I,” Yuui tried to find his words. He normally wasn’t easily afraid of something but he never seen Kurogane like… this. “There is no I, Yuui. You should think about your actions if you know about our destiny.” “You… knew?” Kurogane sighed and shook his head. He was angry, but as he began to speak to Yuui, he was speaking quietly, so that no one outside the room could hear him. And after all, he likes Yuui, only likes not love, but they had talked a few times. “You have told me about your Kurogane and if he was…well like me, you should know that it is really easy for me to find out things. I never believed in the witch’s words about this same soul in different worlds thing, and all that crap, but it got clearer since we arrived here.” Yuui had told him a lot, even that he knows Yuuko so Kurogane doesn‘t need to explain his words. Yuui should understand, what he was trying to tell him. Kurogane bit his lips, then he looked to the door before he stopped to talk. “Just leave already, we talk later,” Kurogane said after hesitating a moment. He really needed to talk to Fai right now. Kurogane had a strange feeling since Yuui had pulled him away in his room. Fai didn’t followed them nor say something about it, Kurogane couldn’t even see his usually smile. He didn’t wait any longer and left his room searching for Fai. “Mage,“ Kurogane shouted through the house. He wanted to talk to him right now even if he had to pin him down or chain him. “I know you’re here, stop hiding yourself. I need to talk to you!“ “I’m not hiding,“ Fai responded from the living room. He sat there on the sofa, the cup with tea which Kurogane left in his hands and was starring on the white wall in front of him. Kurogane came in. “Should I be scared to be bedded, too… Kuro-nyu?“ Fai used this name on purpose without taking a look on Kurogane. “…” “Sadly I’m not in the mood and your room is still taken I suppose? No offense you know I’d love to have sex with you but I’m busy finding a way out of this world, you know?” “Fine,” Kurogane grumbled. “I can play this game, too.” Fai pissed him off. This words were more than enough to understand that he cares anyway! “Nothing but lies,” Kurogane hissed. “I’m not lying, Kuro-nyu~,” Fai still used this name knowing he would make Kurogane more angry. “First you told me you didn’t care but I totally can see through your smile and words right now. What are you hiding? What are you afraid of?” “Ah- I’m telling the truth anyway. I’m on my way to get out of here… I mean finding Mokona.” “Yeah, you may do but that’s not what I’m talking about.” “What is it?” “You’re such an Idiot, mage! Good for you that I’ve know you for a while now … otherwise I would have killed you already.” Fai laughed. Kurogane took a step closer to Fai, glaring on him. “You’re funny. I begged you to let me die already but you never did and still won’t.” “Shut your mouth, mage. I’m talking about your true feelings! You don’t have to tell me, but stop grinning and smiling and playing like everything’s okay. You can’t lie to me and you never can… I know you way too much. But what I’m talking about is: Tell me if you’re bothered by me having sex with Yuui or tell me if it’s okay but stop pretending that it doesn‘t bother you.“ “I told you I don’t care. It’s just strange because… you know, it’s me… somehow. You having a relationship with me but not me is really strange, isn’t it?“ Fai laughed again but more restrained. One more step closer. “I can’t forgive you for saving my life. I need to die… sooner or later, more soon than later but you’re the one who can’t understand. I don’t need to be honest with you nor me… nor Yuui. It’s okay for you to have fun. You did too much for me and-” Fai stopped interrupted by Kurogane. He didn’t sted in front of Fai but pinned him on the sofa. “Mage,“ Kurogane still glared at him. “You don’t make any sense, you avoided everything I said.” “I did not.” Kurogane wouldn’t stop this time. “You’re telling me it’s okay what I do with Yuui? You don’t feel anything when you think about me touching his soft skin? Me kissing his smooth lips, licking over his body … even if I could do the same with you? The both of you are the same person but you’re not. It’s like he was waiting for me his entire life since his Kurogane was gone, but he can’t have me because I’m your destined one?” “…” Fai kept up his smile… he tried. He smiled even more hearing all these words from Kurogane. Fai felt his hands under his shirt, his body right above him telling him all the things he did with Yuui. It was disgusting. It was painful. Fai never felt such a pain in his heart but he still smiled. Still lied to Kurogane. “Your eyes, well one eye for now, they are so deep, Fai. Your eyes hide much more than Yuui’s, I want to know, what lies behind them, which story you have to tell… but if you still don’t care… I may think about staying in this world.” Kurogane never lied, he always was honest with his feeling, but it was different this time. He never thought about staying in this world without Fai nor did he really want to stay with Yuui but he tried to provoke Fai. Instead of getting an answer he saw into Fai’s wide open eye. Not even a lie could hide this obvious shock. Kurogane rose. “Tell me when you leave,“ Kurogane meant. It wasn’t possible for Fai to leave without Kurogane, he needed him after all… or his blood at least. Kurogane knew that and he really hoped Fai would understand the meaning of his words. Once again he would wait for him. “You know where to find me,” Kurogane added when he left the room. Hosted by Animexx e.V. (http://www.animexx.de)